Unseen (a poem about unrequited love)

Unseen (a poem about unrequited love) is the second poem that I have published on my website. The first one was Crumble oh wall (( https://www.lorraine-moalosi.com/crumble-oh-wall-a-poem-by-lorraine-moalosi/)). This one, is [obviously] about loving someone who doesn't love you. I am navigating the paradox of knowing my worth yet loving someone who doesn't see my worth. I'm sure one or two of you have experienced this before. So let's cry together as you read Unseen (a poem about unrequited love)

Unseen (a poem about unrequited love)

I've been waiting for you

Not a day's gone by without my wondering what to do

Do I hang on or do I give up

But my heart wants you the most, above all else

See, I see you

And you see that I see you

But neither one of us acknowledges that

Sure, you once made a joke about it

But it was too soon for me to fall in love

So we let it slide

I don't know who's the biggest fool

You for not loving me

Or me for not telling you I love you

But I can't tell you that you see

Because we would both see it as weak

Yet I don't know what's weaker

Crying myself to sleep with a heart that bleeds

Bleeds only for your love and affection

Or admitting that loving you changed my life

I never knew passion before you

I was unfamiliar with boyish charm

But when you smiled my whole world lit up

I felt like a little girl

The most gorgeous girl in the world

Your arms are the warmest cloak I've ever known

Your smile the brightest star I have ever seen

Even now your pearly whites haunt me in my dreams

How long my love until you are out of my life

Or at the very least, my heart

How long should I peacock myself

While you remain impervious

You can't get enough of my touch

yet your soul I'm not allowed to touch

Or feel

Or see

Not even glimpse

So while you are busy loving her

I'll be here crying for you

And praying that maybe someday

I'll meet someone who might measure up to you

In the meantime I have to accept that

I am unseen by you